DJRenatus

"You call it madness, I call it love." -Don Byas

AN: Madness is a series of one-shots that I have been randomly inspired to write. Some may or may not be connected. Pillow Talk is partly inspired by a doujinshi that I had been reading called How Deep Is Your Love and the comments that followed its posting.

Disclaimer: I do not, unfortunately, own X/1999. Otherwise there would be Seishirou/Subaru P0RN everywhere and they both would die in a classic Romeo and Juliette style. (X-Posted to FF.net)

Dedicated to Anime Yaoi Lover, by wonderful beta. And I decided to bold the sentence so it's more solid. I liked it in Italics because it made everything more "whispery."

 

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Subaru wishes he could turn his brain off sometimes.

Maybe then he’d have a moment’s peace.

When Seishirou touches his cheek, Subaru thinks about it and thinks about it and thinks about it until the cows come home. ‘This isn’t Seishirou,’ he tells himself and he tells Seishirou,

“Stop.”

Seishirou frowns a little before easing into a convincing smile.

“No.”

Subaru starts to cry and wonders,

‘Why does he want me like this?’

He asks Seishirou,

“Will you ever leave me alone?”

Seishirou really does frown then. It doesn’t ease away either. Instead, he brings hands up to his lips, eye livid with anger at the mere suggestion.

“You’re mine.”

Subaru can’t deny it and can only weep as Seishirou begins to bring him closer to him. Seishirou wraps his arms around the youth and Subaru can’t stop crying. He thinks,

‘What if I don’t want to be yours anymore?’

-and he must have said it aloud because Seishirou’s arms tighten to the point where Subaru can hear his bones bending.

“You’ll always be mine,”

Seishirou whispers against his ear, a soft forbidden secret. Subaru knows it as much as he wants to leave.

“Go away.”

Seishirou places a delicate kiss against his forehead and Subaru feels blood seep down to the pillow. He stands and rises and leaves the bedroom. Subaru is alone and unsatisfied with his own longings.

“Come back,”

He whispers in the room.

“I want to always be yours.”

Seishirou is gone and only the walls hear him crying still.

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R&R, if you please.